About two weeks ago Netflix came out with a series based on a book by Jay Asher entitled Thirteen Reasons Why. Disturbing on several levels, I watched the first season with a sense of sadness, always hoping that one character or another would be able to help Hannah, the young lady who has committed suicide. I usually try to read the book before I watch something, but after listening to my colleagues talk about the series, I decided to watch it first. This is truly an amazing series.
I don’t want to spend any time going into the entire story, I’ll leave that for you to do. I do, however, strongly recommend viewing this 13 episode series.
What I have done is written a poem from the lead characters point of view.
I breathe the air of despair, not knowing why.
In and out, every waking moment a trial, I am the accused.
The mask I see reflected back at me, filled with pain, not knowing why.
My life is a charade, why would they? How could they?
The pieces of the puzzle, spread out before me, a mystery, for how long?
Each piece a variation on a theme. How do they fit together? Will they fit together? Should they fit together?
I search for the truth, and as my truth unfolds, I am lost, now knowing why.
Days pass and I circle the hole, fighting not to be consumed, but I can’t hold on.
The puzzle refuses to come together. I am not whole and as unrequited love passes by, I cry, not knowing why.
Warm water cascades over me and as I slowly slide into nothing, why did she do it they will say.
Will they ever know why? Should they know why? I am tired of not knowing why.
The Zen Hiker 
I don’t think I’ll watch or read this one, but I can relate to you poem.
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I’ll take your word that it is a gripping series but as someone who works with a community that often sees no hope in the here and now, I am too familiar with suicide and suicide ideation.
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I should have really clarified my comments. When I say that it was amazing, I don’t mean in an entertaning way. I work in a high school and we too have a good number of teens who suffer from various mental issues and some who are suicidal. My take on the series was that it wasn’t one thing that caused her to do what she did, but instead a series of events.
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I didn’t take it that you found it ‘entertaining’ as in you enjoyed the series. Rather it had interest for you because of possible back stories …
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You should read the book Before I Fall. One of all-time favorites. When I finished it, I immediately, like the same day, read it again. And I have many times since. Sounds somewhat similar.
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